Endings, New Beginnings, and Predictions

The end is near...for my college degree that is. Yesterday was the dreaded dress rehearsal and opening show for our senior capstone concert, a show where all the seniors in the dance department choreograph pieces and produce an entire concert in one semester. It has been a challenging class, that is for sure! There have been multiple mishaps throughout the semester for my pieces...from complete music changes and having to gut the whole choreography 2 months into rehearsal, to having the girl in both of my pieces break her hand 8 days before the concert opened. I've resolved most everything--switched to a song that I could re-chunk all my choreographed movement into in a different order more or less, and finding a last minute replacement for both pieces--a miracle girl who learned the whole 3 1/2 min cha-cha routine in about 2 hours of rehearsal, and myself being able to disguise my baby bump enough to pull off dancing my foxtrot non-prego looking, and have had to relearn the process of calming down and not overly stressing the small stuff. That, in and of itself, is one DIFFICULT lesson for me, since I seem to get rounds of trials to remind me of what I should have already learned years ago.

However, last night's concert went fantastic. Tonight my mother in law, sister in law, and husband will be in the audience, which is wonderfully exciting because I love having people I know in the audience, and tomorrow my family will be coming to the show as well. I am relieved that the show is almost over, but a bit sad that I won't be spending time with all the women I have made friends with throughout my degree. In a week from today, I will be graduated, and everyone will be moving away, getting married, starting new adventures, and I'm sure we will all lose touch a bit as we all go our separate ways. I have learned a lot from these women in the department, and it's been fun to watch us grow and change as we have worked our way through the program.

I am so very much looking forward to our new adventures after graduation though. In only 21 weeks I will have a small thing to snuggle and love on. I am both terrified and ecstatic at this prospect. I'm sure that's normal. It will be a lot of change. Good change, but change--which is scary. I'm currently 19 weeks prego, and just this past week or so I've been starting to feel little flutters from this little one, making this whole pregnancy feel just that much more real. Next week will be half way, I can't believe how fast it has gone. At my appointment next week I will be able to schedule my ultra sound, which probably won't be until the week after graduation, but just knowing that in only a week and a half I will know if this little one will be a she baby or a he baby is so exciting to me.

So, with that, place your final predictions. I've had probably about half and half of people saying it's a boy or girl. I have no idea what it is. At first I was dead set that it HAD to be a girl, but then a few weeks in I thought it could definitely be a boy, and now I'm just right in the middle. I've had dreams about having both. Logan doesn't have any feelings either way either. We just want to know so we can start getting ready, and I know we will be just so excited about either. Just thinking about it makes me so giddy.

So, if you want to make any guesses, it's now or never...because in just a few short days we will know! I am so excited!!!